Here is the love of my life

After 3 days of relentless work in our small but busy store I am now left with a lot of things to do regarding my so called profession but no energy to accomplish those tedious things like computing my students' grades and making their report cards as well as thinking of new and better teaching strategies for my very inquisitive and very observant little darlings in school.
So here I am facing the computer with nothing on my mind but taking my fill of playing those online games and being a virtual farmer, a virtual chef, a virtual amusement park manager, a virtual city girl which embodies my dreams.
As a farmer i dream to have hundreds of acres of thriving land with the right crops and trees that would make me a talk of the town farmer for producing first class vegetables and fruits.
As chef i would have loved to have my own cafe, a place for my clients to relax taking some fill of my delicious coffee mixes and mouth watering pastries while whispering sweet nothings to their loved ones.
As an amusement park manage, I would have loved to provide never - ending fun to the kids and those young at heart...excitement and thrill that they would be enjoying time and time again.
Id like ti live in YOVILLE, where I can have my own condominium unit with all the high end amenities.. a jacuzzi, a complete theater set of quality movie and sound equipments..some gym facilities that would make me fit and sexy...(hehehehhe) oh how I'd love to spend a day in the spa as well as have a make over in the parlor..and most of all...I'd like to shop till i drop!

but then reality sinks in...the bills I have to pay...the work i have to do to earn a living...the responsibility of educating my beautiful girl so that with God's grace she'll become a successful person in her own right someday.

life stinks....but then we got to breath it all in and be alive...

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is this really is it?

Love?
really? what does it mean?
A lot has been said but still nothing can fully satisfy me about it?

I would say that I have been inlove - a lot of times, however, I should say too that I have lost a lot more.
But come to think of it, when can you truly say that you have won?

Is it love when you are with someone whom you think is right for you?
Is he Mr. Right when when he cares about you a lot?
When he goes out of his way to do thing just to make you feel special?
Is he Mr. Right when you have been with him for a couple of years?
but...who decides who is right and who is wrong?

Is it love whenever you meet again with somebody from the past and still feel the giddy feeling when you two touch?
Is it still love when you feel like you are in cloud 9 when that SOMEBODY
expresses how important you are to him no matter how long you have not seen each other?

Is it love when you think of someone who became a part of your life for a very short while just because you wanted to sip a cup of steaming hot coffee and a dash of Cinnamon?

Is it love when you think of someone who might comeback after almost a decade of silence?
Just wondering if you can still burn the candle together...

Or is it still love when you are alone, just living the life and loving yourself without waiting for someone else's decision, living alone enjoying life without thinking about someone else's approval?

Because I believe that being alone is not that bad at all...
Being alone does not necessarily mean being lonely.

Does love guarantee to drive away the demons of loneliness?
Does it protect you from the searing pain of disappointments?
Does it hinder tears from rolling down your cheeks?
Does it heal the wounds of the reckless heart?
Does it strip you with the longing to be with somebody?
Can love do all these?
Can love give meaning to your existence?
Can love sustain your emotions?
Can love fill the void that empty arms can offer?
Can love unclothe the emptiness that misfortunes have created in you?

then... what is love?

love is.....................

is this really is it?

Love?

here are my darlings, crowding me whenever we do some art works.
oh how they love to tinker and wonder.

my '09 completers...
how i miss them...
spending 3 years with them is both a marvel and a pleasure and seeing them leave the 4 corners of our small room makes my heart cry with joy because they are venturing into the world of the graders and and makes my heart cry with nostalgia because they will always be my sons and daughters.

my students with their handprints on the back of their shirts
nice!!!

Two of my dear students doing their art work
Souvenir shirt from Stella Mariz Learning Center.
They had fun messing around and they had a shirt that they can wear proudly knowing that they have decorated it.

the falsity of dying to live again

Living is a part of me...and i have experinced some of it...
dying is also a part of me however i have died in order to live...
the death of two dreams...
the death of two fervently wished occurrence
the pain of death
the stinking smell of death
of waiting to live again after the death

luvs

seaside...

love immortal
soothing breeze
sparkling skyline
moon so full
night unforgettable

You reminded me of the full moon that shines above the horizon, so majestic that it shadows all the stars at night, so grand that it brings out the sparkling waves near the shore, so like you when you put the light up in my life during my darkest moments.

You give colors to my dull, gray wold by turning it into a kaleidoscope. You turned my life into sparkling wine - sweet and bitter that made me so heady and that smiles would never leave my face.

The sea calms my frenzied nerves, freed my troubled soul so like you, with just an embrace, a squeeze of the hand, a pat on my cheek or even a faint smile across a crowded room settle my mind like a tamed lion.

Stay with me...and keep me warm like the breeze blow my worries away.

stella mariz, your kids' second home

Where you can be rest assured that your children are in good hands...

their future is within reach...

we are here to care for your kids...

try us...

fuzzy fuzzy wiry faces

my pupils love this and i love this fuzzy activity too...