having been in a relationship of almost five years is never an easy task..
from the start, i was apprehensive that being in a very traditional community our age gap would create a friction among the people around us..but we still went into it because he kept on saying and promising that we will overcome whatever negative things the people around us would say regarding our may - December affair..
and so we did..
gloriously...at first knowing that people may frown upon us but hoping that eventually everything will fall into its right places.
now i guess all those little comments have become so irritating and those little actions have caused a rippling effect in our relationship and its taking its toll on us..
at first his parents were just suggesting in a very subtle way that he should find a better partner, someone who is near his age group, someone who is more financially stable..who is more beautiful..who is not a single mom..
but now they are actively dishing his previous romances to him again of course with the hope that he will find in them their ideal girl for him...
i am in pain knowing that he is getting all these inappropriate things they are giving him..
i can see that he is having a hard time balancing the act of maintaining being a son to his parents and a brother to his siblings...but at the same time i can feel the struggle that he is undergoing for the past few months by sheilding me from these painful attacks the they are hurling at us...
now, i do know that i love him for all the things that he has done..and there are a lot..
i know...i love him for fighting for us against those judgmental people who seems to do nothing but create frictions between us..
why can't they just leave us alone?
why?
now im contemplating of ending it..i know its hard to start being alone again..i know how difficult it is to long for someone whose been with you for quiet a few years..
i dont wana be in a relationship were uncertainties are abundant...
taking a deep breath can no longer ease the pain..
what should i do?
laffs, luvs & laifs
this is all about kids' stuff...fun...fun...fun...
let your laughter thunder, your love spread and touch others' lives...
we are meant to teach, train and treat children as our own...
let your laughter thunder, your love spread and touch others' lives...we are meant to teach, train and treat children as our own...
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That's painful indeed. Breaking up to someone whom you loved and cared for such a long period of time is just like mourning for someone who passed away.
ReplyDeleteI been in a situation like this and I’m telling you it’s definitely difficult to fight relationship like this especially when parents are involved. Although we (boys) want to stand for what we feel, we can’t dare to see parents especially mother begging for our understanding. I can’t also understand why they can’t give the happiness we’ve found and keep insisting what they want for us. For them, they think all things they are planning are for our betterment but the reality is, they fail to consider the pain in our heart.
I don’t think I have the authority to tell what you should do but to sympathize with you. We’re been a friend and I know a bit of how worse you’ve gone in your previous relationship. Just like what you keep on telling me that “There’s a Rainbow after every rain”, I can tell you too that there’s a “Light at the end of every tunnel”.
Believe me; God has the reason of allowing pains to touch your life. Trust to him and let HIM decide of your fate. Maybe your fiancée have the best way of negotiating the situation. i hope it would be at your favor.
ahem..what can i say but prince had said everything i wanted to tell you...maybe i can add up by saying, i am just right here, with same big ears, same broad shoulders to lean on, arms wide open to comfort you...and a babbling mouth to make you laugh...i understand how and what you are feeling but i know you are better off in handling things like this than i do...love you and will always be your friend...indeed, there's a light at the end of the tunnel...and for me, there's a ring at the otehr channel...LOL...insert man jud...Be strong girl! ikaw pa...
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